IN THE BEGINNING
Yes, as vain as this looks, this is how I look like for the past 4 years. (Excluding the 1st photo of course which is probably taken for more than a decade ago.) Like most girls in their puberty stage, I started out as an insecure and incredibly shy 13 year old. I was lost and although I’m not even near perfect now (nobody is anyway), I’m glad I’ve changed. I learned to accept my flaws and focused on my strengths instead. I tried to use my ‘being lost’ stage as an advantage for me to travel (no, I’ve never been on an airplane before.) What I mean by travel is to try different paths and see what works for me. “Live life to the fullest”, I’ve always loved that quote. As ironic as it sounds, because of the falls and blows I’ve received in the past, I’ve become a happier person. I’ve learned to see things in a different light. Everything happens for a reason. God has a purpose. I’ve learned to trust in Him more. So wherever the wind takes me, I smile and try to sail with it. If it’s a challenge, I’ll grow and become a stronger person. If it’s a blessing, thank God. If it’s anything under the sun, I’ll do my best to make the journey worthwhile.
I once said the Masscom is my first choice, even if I’m not giving up on Adve, I’m also not giving up on Masscom. :) It’s not end, it’s just the beginning. The journey has just started. :) Everything will soon fall into place. :)1 note
(from art camp)
Curtain. Before the show starts and when it ends, you’ll always hear that word.
(Ang Bastos and Unang Dalaw cast: Backstage)
For months I’ve worked hard, a perfect attendance (minus my 2-day sick leave), I was never absent.
(Both pics: Ismail at Isabel pictorial-Ang mga bata; Backstage)
Experiencing both happiness and sadness, the satisfaction I’ve gain after all the hard work. Although it was a long and hard journey, even if the road was bumpy, it was worth it.
(Polympics: Athens-Yellow Team)
But I guess I didn’t know that my destination was different from my fellow workshopper’s. The rope that tied me down, the rope that I’ve held on for so long, I had to let it go and learn to live without it.
(Advance Acting-Teaser: Gamo-Gamo sa Kanto ng East Avenue)
I love acting. During those times I was a part of Polyrep, I know I’ve gained something I wouldn’t have gotten if I took another path.
The friends I made, the new faces I saw, the knowledge I’ve got, all the things I’ve learned from this wonderful experience. It’s amazing how it all happened.
(Art camp: Teams)
If I leave I’ll regret it. If I don’t I’ll regret it. But I hate regrets, so instead I tried to look at it from a different perspective. The glass is half-full. It’s not a choice if it’s a 100% right. 50-50, 50% more and it’ll become a 100%. It’s choice, so I have to prove to myself that I made the right choice.
There are things that aren’t really for you, but still God lets you experience it because of your persistence. Thank You Lord for letting me know such wonderful people. Although I can no longer continue the journey WITH them, I’m more than content to know that I once became a part of that journey. We may go on different paths now, but they will always remain inside my heart. ILY SLP Workshoppers. ILY POLYREP. ILY UCCA. ♥ Curtain.8 notes
Summer 2009, one of the greatest summer ever. It’s the first time I actually did something productive during summer.
PETA: TEEN THEATER 1, although I was the oldest in class (turning 17 that year, while my classmates were 16 below), I made friends with those 4-5 years younger than me. XD I guess it’s easier to relate to them. I don’t know why, but I’m a child at heart. :))
I always loved acting. But I was always too shy, too scared to come out of my shell. I’m glad I took this step, it started with a simple desire that turned into passion.
(Playing around during the workshop. XDDDD LOL. I love this photo. XD)
The workshop was fun and interactive. Everyday we get to learn something new. No burdens, no pressure.
All the great memories during that time, I wouldn’t be the same if all those didn’t happen. Thank God for the wonderful memories.
I tried to escape them. I tried to run away. But whatever I do, I always end up with them anyway. I guess sometimes it is hard to fight your destiny. I give up, since God knows best, I know it’s better than my plan.
Who would have taught that we’ll all be this close. I tried to shift last sem, but something blocked my plan. I wanted to shift this year, but I gave in to my emotions. I tried to isolate myself and concentrate on my org, just so I won’t be attached to them. But that didn’t happen. During the second semester, I decided to stay. Although not only for them, but also for my own good.
“Mahirap maging irreg, lalo na at block section ang school namin.” But it’s fun. You get to meet new faces. Although I mostly choose 1st years to be my classmates. Since they don’t each other yet, it’s easier to get along with them. But that’s not the only reason I’m no longer shifting, because I think actually learned to love my course. Well, I think. :P
1st Choice: Masscom Major in Broadcast Communication
2nd Choice: Masscom Major in Journalism
3rd Choice: Multimedia Arts
4th Choice: Theater Arts
5th Choice: Business Management
Ended up with: College of Business-Advertising and Public Relations
Why? WALA NA KASING SLOT. PSSH~
As you can see, I’ve never even considered Adve. But in the end I tried to convince myself by thinking that it’s a mixture of the courses I wanted to take. Although I want to contunue this until the end now, I’m still thinking of studying again after I graduate.
There were times when I’ve taken things for granted. There were times when I did my best. Yet still, I have no regrets. I’m happy that I’ve devoted my first sem to my org, the same as I’m happy that I’ve decided to go back to studying even if that means sacrificing one thing: My Org. But there’s one thing I’m sure of, I want to do better this coming school year. To somehow, take thing seriously.
All the painful and happy moments during my 1st year up to now, I know there’s a reason why those happened. At least I can smile now knowing I have more stories to tell. I have no idea if the decision I made is right or wrong, but it wouldn’t be a choice if it’s 100% accurate. It’s up to you to prove to yourself that you made the right choice.
Although the road is long and bumpy. I’m glad that I have friends whom I can lean on. Lord God, please help us graduate. :) Thank You. We love You!
If there’s something I miss in High School, it’s Journ. More than anything else, it’s writing for our school’s newspaper.
That’s me in the middle, short hair<3
Journalism Class, or simply Journ, opened a lot of doors for me. It probably opened the world for me, if I were to exaggerate things. :) It made me who I am today. It gave me the boost I needed to face the world. :P
Although, instead of a choice, I believe that being a part of that class was destined. Back then, only honor students were allowed to join the said class. Allowed is not even a proper word, rather we were forced to join. I wasn’t supposed to be in the top 10, but a tie made that possible.
The Ia’s: Gia.Ria.Iya
Journ made me stronger. Whenever I’m feeling down, I just have to remember the things I went through during High School. I learned that with persistence, perseverance and a positive mindset, anything is possible, if you just believe in yourself.
Thanks to Sir Josiah, our adviser, I finally learned to believe in myself. Even if no one else would. They won’t believe in you anyway unless you prove yourself. Also thanks to Shyne, for giving me encouraging words to go on when I feel like I have no where else to go. I cried a lot but all my tears turned into laughter. I was extremely satisfied with the results of my hard work. And I’ll never forget that feeling. God guided me throughout the whole journey. Thank God. I finally found myself.
I now know what I want to do with my life. I love writing. And I love the people I was with throughout this journey. One experience I’ll never forget is when we went to Naga. And of course the 2008 Division Secondary Schools’ Press Conference. Although I do envy my juniors who are able hone their craft more then we were able to do, I’m still glad. Since things might have not turned out this way if I was a year younger.
Funny, how the things that made us cry before, made us stronger now. Ignite, our school’s newspaper, even published my 1st short story “In my room.” :) Although I started blogging before I became a part of Ignite, I’m blogging again because I want to relive the part of me.
Ignite is a blessing in my life. Thank you Lord God for all the blessings. :) You’re the best!3 notes
I’ve been a kpop fan for 3-4 years. I’ve been crazy. I’ve been normal. I’ve been broke. And I’ve almost had an empty pocket. But I wouldn’t exchange the experiences I had for anything. It truly made a very happy and satisfied fangirl.
This friend of mine introduced KPOP to me when we were still high school sophomores (Guess what, we’re turing Juniors next year, College Juniors. XD). At first, I didn’t really that care much. But because of her persistence, I started watching them. Slowly, without realizing, I started following them. Then like a drug, I couldn’t stop, it suddenly because an addiction, an obsession. But I’m glad I was still able to control myself.
November 27, 2009; I met SHINee for the first time. It was also the first time I met a Korean Idol. I was stunned. Even if I was extremely tired of going up and down from CCP, I stil had the energy to come down when their bus came. And there I was staring at them, 7 inches away, Onew was right there in front of me. Even if I only saw his side view, I was still happy. I was satisfied. I feel blessed. Blessed to be here. Blessed to see them. A few weeks ago, I was desperate. I wanted to cry that they’re coming here, and I’ll be staying home wishing to see them. But a blessing came, I thank God for that blessing. During their performance at CCP, I was sitting at the exact part where Onew always stands. We were so near. It felt like a dream. I started at Onew until the performance was over. I was so shock that even if everyone was screaming their lungs out, there I was sitting quietly, looking at Onew’s every move. My friend even had to take the camera from my hands because I wasn’t even recording, I was in a trance. O.O But deep inside, I just wanted to sit there and enjoy every moment. Really, thank God for this opportunity to see them.
I didn’t really like 4minute that much before, but after meeting them I loved them. JiHyun Unnie is so pretty! SoHyun is so cute. :) JiYoon’s abs are like “WOW.” HyuNa’s legs are shining, sparkling. XD AND GAYOON IS SO BEAUTIFUL IN PERSON! Again, I see this as another blessing. I got their autograph and CD for 60pesos! Special thanks to someone. But I’m not sure if that someone would like it if I blurt out his name like this. XD But really, thanks. Thank God once again for keeping up with me, I feel so blessed. I love God so much. :)
@ THE FANMEET. We bumped into kiseop in the elevator. XD
@Shangrila Plaza with my dongsaeng. <3
I like Kevin a lot. Even before UKISS started. But after the malltours and guestings, I fell inlove with DongHo. (PEDO ALERT! KIDDING. XD) This is probably where my intense kabaliwan started and hmm, neutralized? XD Or at least I was able to lessen the intensity. I went to 2 of their malltours, I even went to their walang tulugan guesting. I held their hands, went to the concert and their fanmeet. I was extremely satisfied. God’s blessing was overflowing. Really, I’m very thankful. (WORD OF THE DAY: THANKFUL and BLESSED. :D)
With UKISSME’S PRESIDENT<3 INAH! And UKMG’S Eli, TERESA. :D
Back them, I never expected them to be this important to me. Like every fangirl, they did change my life. For better and for worse. Although they taught me to chase after my dreams, they also held me back. But that’s a different story. Now I’m using my fandom positively. And it’s working. During those times, I realized a lot of things. As much as I still want to see them again -of course I still want to go to my favorite idol’s concerts and see them in person- but I shouldn’t let them take over my life. God thought me this the hard and easy way. :) It was all a blessing and a challenge in disguise. Fangirling shouldn’t be my life, but rather a part of my life. Thank you Lord God, I just really want to express my gratitude to God, to everyone. Shawols, 4nias, Kissme’s, the fandom world. Thanks. And I love you all. :)
“Sakuya Umma Pose!”
I also met a lot of wonderful friends here. :) Fangirling changed me, I became stronger through it. It may seem simple, but it had a great effect on who I am today. The effect? It’s a secret. And hey, at least I no longer wish for an anime boy, at least now, it’s less of a fantasy. I think. Kekekekeke~ :))
I accidentally deleted my 1st post. T.T So I had to rewrite from scratch. But it’s fine, since all went well. :)1 note
So this will be my first post for my 365 days project. :)
WEEK 1: IN THE BEGINNING
DAY 1: SAKURA KISS (I ♥ ANIME)
Sakura (or Cherry Blossoms), symbolizes life. Life may fly by as swift and fast as the Cherry Blossom tree, but its beauty can’t be ignored. It gives a lasting impression and simply leaves its mark on earth.
The pretty boys in Ouran High School Host Club got me hooked the first time I watched it. Flower boys, I knew about them even before knowing they actually exist in reality. I was only 14 back then, but my panda eyes were already starting to develop, thanks to anime and unlimited internet access.
I remember when my friend asked which of these Host Club guys I think is handsome. I pointed at brown haired one. Then my friend retorted and said, “Babae yan!” My mouth dropped, I was shocked. Since by looking at the picture he’s showing me, I wouldn’t go for any of the other guys except the girl (that sounded so wrong). Out of curiosity I started watching the series and boy was I hooked. Moving pictures made them look better. :P So much better. Among all the hosts, the twins left an impression on me, especially Hikaru. I started liking him and Haruhi together, especially after the Halloweern episode and Episode 16. Until now, Ouran is still one of my favorites. I still love Hikaru and Kaoru. ♥ And I have to say, Haruhi is one lucky girl. :P I’ll break a vase any day if staying with them would be my punishment. :))
(c) giangy (HIKARUXHARUHIXTAMAKI)
(c) adephi (TWINCESTXHARUHI)
Although Hikaru X Haruhi is my favorite pair. It seems like the twincest’s forbidden love is more likely to happen. Sigh.
. I wanted to know why, so I started watching it too. Surprisingly, I surpassed my record. I finished Ouran for less than week, I watched about 130 episodes of Naruto for about 4-5 days. O.O Guess why I stopped? Sasuke left. -.-
I love SasuSaku. Who knew they’d end up this way. Although I’ve actually disregarded the thought that Sasuke might have ended up liking Sakura if he wasn’t preoccupied with his revenge thing. But seeing how he changed now, and how he treated Sakura before, I could really say that maybe their story could have had another ending. Not that I’ve lost hope after seeing Shippuden (ok, I kind of did, a little), but Sasuke turning into a crazy bastard and trying to kill Sakura isn’t exactly what I dreamed about 4 years ago. (OMO! I’M THAT OLD ALREADY? D:)
Among all Anime guys history, I became overly obsessed over Natsume Hyuuga (PEDO ALERT :P). I even dreamed about him being real. XD I still read the manga now, but I’m several chapters behind. :P
I started making AMVs around this time too. These are my two favorites. :)
(c) ME ^_^
Sakura Mikan and Natsume Hyuuga is probably the most satisfying pairing I’ve watched and read. Their growth and development was something I wanted to see in SasuSaku. Plus, they’re still growing. Although I hope Natsume won’t eventually fade away like the Cherry Blossoms in April. D:
Still among all these couple, SakuraXShaoran is still a classic. Cherry Blossom’s bloom at a relatively short time. Sakura and Shaoran took a long time before finally knowing (or maybe admitting) they like each other. It’s like they had to go through summer, fall, winter before seeing the Cherry Blossoms spring. Then when it comes to see the them in full bloom, the moment was short but still beautiful. Hey, even the movie took a while to get to the point.
It may be a coincidence, but most of my favorite anime’s female lead’s name is Sakura. Either it’s their first name (Sakura Haruno and Sakura Kinomoto) or their Surname (Mikan Sakura), it makes me wonder if Sakura has something to do with being connected with hot guys. XD Though if I were to choose, I’d rather be sitting pretty in the host club and sing Sakura Kiss everyday, less violence, more pretty boys. :))
Sakura represents life. These female character’s all have different lives. But just like Cherry Blossom’s, in time they’ll also be in their full bloom. (Sakura Kinomoto was done with that though.)
As much as I love anime, I did my best to try and stay away from it. When I’m in my obsessed state, I tend to dwell too much on my current obsession.
(WORD OF THE DAY: OBSESSION) So I try to find new things to like, and that’s how I got into KPOP.
To be continued…2 notes